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DEFICIENCIES -
I didn't believe in them. I knew they existed, but I never experienced them myself.
ADYNAMIA is what I'm talking about. The inability to get started. At times I just can't seem to have the ability to get on-line. I keep making excuses for why I don't do it.
My brother called me the other night from Hong Kong to check out how I'm doing with my efforts with America-On-Line and I told him that I was scared that I couldn't do it. So, instead of making the effort, I sometimes just don't even try. With all I have done since my injury (at the time I wrote this it was 15 years ago), now I'm not even making the effort.
Every so often I get the initiative to go online -- I call and I can't get through. This doesn't stop just with the computer, I also experience this with doing my laundry. Usually I do my laundry every Monday or Tuesday because I'm afraid of bumping into people I know and have to talk. This is why I wear dirty underwear or call my mother and do my laundry at her house. But today I did my laundry at the Laundromat and didn't experience anything bad. I even saw two people I know and nothing catastrophic happened. So I think I know what I need to do.
My motto is, "don't talk about doing it, just do it!
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