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That's the way I feel. It's not the future.
I just got off the phone with Drew Marone, and I think I will start an account with his computer service company, TZ Link. I don't know too much about this on-line stuff, but it's different, and they say it's cheaper. You see, I have trouble when things are new.
I guess it takes me time to get acclimated to things. This head injury is something that I needed to adjust to, and probably will never get used to fully.
This life is so multi-faceted; everything is so interconnected. It's mind boggling. IT'S GREY; things are grey, they are not white and black; THEY'RE GREY, nothing is definite, there is no good or bad, or right or wrong. Things just are sometimes.
I think of my accident; good or bad ? On one hand it was bad. It changed my physical status drastically. Bugs the hell out of me. It was a brain injury; of course it changed everything. The brain is the mechanism that rules everything.
Think about it; every single thing that you do is the brain. From your breathing to scratching your balls; it all comes from the brain. Your head gets rattled; and of course it will effect the brain. COMMON SENSE, wouldn't you say? I'm stuck: I will move on.
I was discussing how the world is so diverse, and how grey (unexact) it is.
I want everything. I mean I want to do everything. I want to do a great job in everything I do; I want a printer for my computer; I want a girlfriend (to be my wife); I want; I want; I want.
But I settle; I must constantly remind myself that what is, is. But then I want more. Then this leads me back to GREY, and I teach myself to accept, and move on. Just let things be. You don't always have to push for more; status quo is OK too. Just sit back and enjoy the ride.
Yes, it's not always easy. It's a struggle; constantly. Even now I wrestle with whether I'm heading in the right direction. Good or bad, or just is what it is. I continue to struggle; and maybe I always will. It's uncomfortable; but this is it. Dan the undaunted warrior.
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