New |
Persistence |
Tremor |
Frustration |
Deficiencies |
Being In Charge |
God
Being Out There |
Girls |
Sex |
Frozen |
Two Types |
Starting Out |
Topsy Turvy |
My Words
Check out the Arclight Magazine article about my first book project
FRUSTRATION -
That is what I am experiencing. I have so many things going on, but none of them seem to be down. By down I mean taken care of, or resolved.
I am trying to load AOL, onto my computer; and am having trouble. I am working on getting this book off the ground; and I am looking to just be happy. I am overwhelmed with taking on too many things.
This is my life story. I am aware of this, but don't seem to accept it. But I do, I do understand it. And I am doing great things. I always have great ideas to write about for this book; topics I would like to write on. I think of them, but don't write them down. Then when I sit down to write, I can't remember the topics I wanted to write on. It is a no win situation.
So I will just keep on trucking. Doing what I can. Living life the way I do, from day to day. Going through these moments of great ideas to moments of frustrations. It is all a process with no rhyme or reason. I guess it is just important that I don't let it get me down to a point where I give up, or stop trucking. Because once someone stops trucking, they lose their desire for living life. And there is so much in life to just give it up and become dormant.
With this head injury, things come in flashes, for me at least. It is difficult to keep focus. It takes great effort for me to keep myself on an idea for any extended time. I am actually very good at remaining focused. I guess this is what has gotten me so far in my life.
I spoke about cycles; time that I keep an idea in mind. Keep it without losing it. I guess this is why I jump from topic to topic. I have all of these great ideas, but I don't do well at talking about any one of them at length. So I won't. This is why I will write this book in short sections. I will discuss the many different situations and experiences I encounter in my life. This will include the many feelings, emotions, experiences, situations (both past and present.)
I am living EVERYTHING! What a great name for this book. It is about the fifth time I have changed what I was going to call this book. At this time I think it would be perfect. I will probably end up changing the title a hundred more times before I finish, but this will be fine for now.
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